Keep on Running

"It’s difficult. Life is difficult. The pain is often too much to bare. I found myself lying in bed screaming and crying to what life had been delivering to me. A failed career. A failed marriage. Another failed relationship. Lost of loved ones. Loss of friends. It came down on me like a ton of bricks. I just wanted to give up. I just wanted it to end. But Just as life brought me down to my knees, I realized that I was still alive. I realized that maybe the reason why I had endured all this pain was for a bigger purpose. I realized that maybe the universe was building my resilience. That maybe God was testing my strength. Testing My heart. I began to run. Step after step, mile after mile. I found my therapy. I ran not to get away from the pain. I ran to endure it. I ran to feel it. I ran harder and harder till it hurt. So that I remembered what pain was. And just after I couldn’t go any further I chose to run even harder, Tears of pain. Tears of love. I was not damned I was not a failure. I was concentrating on all the negative in my life. I hadn’t seen any of the positive. I didn’t recognize that I had a great life in front of me. I didn’t recognize that I had a family who loved me and encouraged me. I had a home, a job, a dog, a cat, a handsome Lil nephew who looked up to me. His uncle. I didn’t realize that I had Love all around me. So I ran more and more for them, but I found that in the end it was myself I was running for. I needed to believe in myself. I needed to see what I was made of. I needed to prove to myself that I was still willing to endure more pain. I needed to prove to myself that I was still willing to live. Any runner will tell you. When you hit that runners high, that pain is worth it. When your gasping for air you realize life is beautiful. And you are alive to experience it to the fullest. When I first began to run I could barely finish a mile. I never thought I would get this far. And On March 18th I will endure 26.2 miles of pain and as I pass mile after mile I will leave it all out on the road. I will leave all the pain behind me, and I will run into my future. At the finish line I will see them all, the ones I cried for, the ones I love, and the ones I’d lost. And it will all be worth it. For what’s the point of living if we’re not living to love. keep on running. Trust me you’re worth it." - Gregory J Macias

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Gregory Macias

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